Apology

They can come in many forms! Maybe a card or flowers, or maybe a dinner or a present! I got into a heated debate in which I almost immediately became defensive about the issue at hand. Upon being told it sounded like I was attacking them, I opened up about how and why I was so passionate about the issue, even to the point of tearing up! I then apologized if I came across as attacking anybody in the conversation, and, putting down their profession. This SHOULD have been the end, but one of the persons continued to berate me and didn’t seem to CARE at all that I had given a very heartfelt apology!  Now, if this would have been a “Close friend” as I was told, then that person would have excepted the apology and let it go! After this person continued with their attack on me, I was not nice with my returning words. It takes a big person to admit when they’re wrong, and when someone does say they’re sorry then maybe, just maybe, except it and move forward.

I lost a good friend whom I cared for! My heart is heavy because I’m a caring and loving person and don’t like putting bad energy into the universe. I try my hardest every day to be better and wiser then yesterday! 

 But, I feel proud that in the heat of the moment I was big enough and strong enough to apologize! 

My Word!!

I was in a boat in the early evening, I was probably 9yrs old and my dad told me, "Son, your word means everything. You can be broke, but your word can be the wealthiest thing you own!" Of course, at the time, I didn't really grasp what he was telling me. Today at 44yrs old, I fully understand what keeping your word means. The majority of time I do keep my word but, there have been times when I haven't been able to.  My oldest son knows that if I promise him...it will be done. You can instantly lose a great deal of respect for a person that says they will do something and then they don't follow through. Back in the day, it could have been a hand shake that told the other person, "You have my word!" I'm not a child and I know in life not everything can be perfect. My parents pounded the old saying Into me: "LIFE IS NOT FAIR!!" I guess when a person doesn't keep their word I'll have to remember....that they are a doo doo breath piggy face loser and hope they get a rash:)

The Genius Is Dead!!

I was in North Carolina waiting to go on stage when my friend, who bares the responsibility of being my Apple buddy, sent me a text saying, "The Genius is dead...Steve Jobs!" I was in shock to say the least. This man was responsible for puting a computer in my pocket! He also had a hand in making me fall in love with computer animation. We all have to go, right? That's what we tell ourselves because it's true. 

Let's go back to the title, "The Genius is Dead." Throughout history the mega super duper smart men and women, that have been given a special gift, achieve greatness through their unique vision or by inventing something.  Lincoln, Gandhi, MLK, Nelson Mandela, and Einstein were all Geniuses of their time. They carried the torch of courage to think differently. They believed there must be a better way to do "it." Many of these men changed the course of history. But for many, when it was time for them to go home, their dreams and their vision fell to the wayside. (Of course MLK's dream didn't...thank god!! ) But, for the most part, when that genius dies, the vision goes with him. Their colleagues and/or friends might submit a generic, watered down version of that dream or vision, but they will soon lose sight of the true dream/vision. Why? Because the originator had the vision and carried the weight and the burden of knowing he/she couldn't stop until it was just right. My guess, is that most of the worlds geniuses are introverted and anal retentive. Attention to detail never escapes them. I guess what I'm trying to say is, since I updated my iPhone to the IOS7, the glaring flaws that continue to plague many, go unanswered. Apple has had plenty of time to correct these issues, but has not! I believe Steve Jobs would have had these issues dealt with in a timely fashion. By his need for perfection alone.

The Genius Is Dead!!

Friends no more

I have lived long enough to understand that some friends were only meant to stop by my life for a brief period. Much like a train pulling into a station, new people get on, and the ones that have traveled several miles get off. I don't feel sad, mad or even put out because I gave myself fully and honestly! I became friends with the intent of sharing my life, never knowing that one day, that old friend would have to get off at the next stop. 

History

I saw a movie yesterday. It was an emotional journey for me. It reminded me of where this country once was. It reminded me that the very state I live in, in another time, would have hurt me for something as simple as drinking from the wrong water fountain. It reminded me of all those brave hero's that had a calling inside and it took them to places where the average person will never go. It reminded me how precious life and the connection with others really is. It reminded me to love my wife unconditionally, to love my sons unconditionally and to love my life unconditionally! Most of all, it reminded me to never buy food at the movie theater, $4.00 for medium soda, $3.50 for a hot dog....OMG!!!

Sandy's son

Addiction!

It's hard for me to understand people and there need to self-destruct with drugs. I'm very lucky in the fact that I have never been drunk and I have never been high.  To be honest, I have never taken any kind of drug.  I do love sweets though. I guess I can see how people can self medicate. I know sweets are not good for me, I know that they can cause problems with health and my teeth,  yet I still jump at the chance to shove them in my mouth.